time to check in.

life's been crazy lately. this week has been a pretty terrible week. the kind of week that makes you want to scream (and i did!) "can i pleaaaase get a do-over??"   my car overheated on monday which lead to towing it. i was in midtown and had to pull over at the gas station, buddy's. should have grabbed a king of pop as a i waited for an hour but.. i didn't.  i started stressing about costs because this is just not the time for unexpected costs to pop up. $470. that's right. so i drove my friend's car all week.

i lost my driver's license and had to pay for a replacement... my instructor was not the happiest with me for not turning in my homework (hello, i have a j-o-b. i'm busy). anyway, just a fun week. in hindsight, it probably wasn't such a big deal but at the time i was over it. 

everything i just said should also be erased because my problems are NOTHING compared to oklahoma. oh man! the tornadoes. my heart breaks for the people who lost everything. those innocent child.. i donated to the animals as i always do. it's just so . darn . sad. however, my brother is ok! he lived one county over from here it all happened and he's ok. no harm done. a cousin of mine lost a few things. i can't imagine.

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today at work i was listening to taylor swift all. day. long. i couldn't get enough. i bought the Red album when it came out and i fell in love with it. unfortunately, i was also in love with a boy at the time. so i took a hiatus from the cd. there was time every song made me giddy inside like one of those girls. haha.  so it was great to finally be able to listen again to those songs and look back with a smile but glad i'm where i'm at now.

me at the office..

ROUGH.

i don't know.

look at what my beautiful little boy made me!

it's really funny because i do. not. cook. 

flashback thursday instagram.

man, i was a cute kid.

i went to a meetup last weekend for rails girls. 

they gave us some sweet, nerdy glasses.

i didn't tell him to do this.

be still, my heart.

rockin' some mailchimp and big nerd ranch paraphernalia.

crazy loon. 

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another update.

since watching the perks of being a wallflower, many people have said my little dude looks as though he will grow up to look just like the character charlie (actor logan lerman). after watching the movie way too many times to count  a few times,  i have to agree. in fact it sorta freaks me out.

the shape of the eyes, the hair cut, the lips, the eye brows, the nose. it's all really creepy. i do know one thing: girls are going to hate me because i'm going to be evil to them. i'm going to make some girls jump through hoops for this cute boy. 

anyway, third quarter is coming to a close at school. it seems like yesterday it was july and i was just starting the circus. it's been worth it and i've really learned so much. i've come such a long way.

i'm going to nashville on the megabus this week. i'm so freaking excited. i'll be seeing my lifelong love, butch walker. YES.

i came across this in a magazine today while getting an oil change. apparently i'm a vulgar parent. "butter bean"? i call luke "lukie dookie" and "buttcrack".. oh and my personal favorite, "farty mcfarterson".

this has to be one of my favorite pictures of all time. this was last year in pre-k. look how he just oozes that, "yeah, i'm hot" factor. i have no idea how we made such a beautiful child.

oh and look at that cute three-year-old before he knew how to give fake smiles. before he began to really have an idea of how cruel people can be. (not that he has a real clue right now.)

now look at how big! squishy face, love love love him.

sorry. having a moment. i won't be seeing his adorable little face until sunday. although i'm really excited about nashville, i'm conflicted because of him. it's a mom thing.

if you asked me..

if you asked me i'd tell you... that i am proud to report i  made it through "love" season (or v-day) without a tear or feeling sorry for myself. i wasn't lonely although i was alone. i wasn't sad for myself. i was content. and thankful.

if you asked me i'd tell you.. the sound of banjo has been making my heart and head clear and happy. mumford and son babel has finally made its way into my life and it's probably the greatest thing that's happened this year.

if you asked me i'd tell you.. my friend has been staying with her grandpa in the hospital for two weeks. since she's in atlanta, i've eaten lunch with her and sometimes when she tells me things her grandpa says, it has really triggered memories of my own. my goodness, i miss that man. it's always nice to know you're someone's favorite. he made sure i knew i was his.

if you asked me i'd tell you.. i had an interview for an internship in atlanta. i will find out more tomorrow. while i know i am capable of doing the code, i'm nervous i won't be good enough. the idea of being the only girl in the office scares me too.

if you asked me i'd tell you.. luke's school called me last week for the first time. they wanted me to pick him up because he had an accident. an accident. he hasn't had one of those since he was two. "good" thing, it's not that he's regressing. he was sick. poor boy..

if you asked me i'd tell you.. i think i'm ready to date again. i've been longing for someone i can hug.. and scratch their backs. true story.

 a girl at school saw that i wanted this book 

from a post i posted on facebook.

she gave it to me.. . WOW. how nice is that?

a picture of myself from valentine's day.

honestly,  i wasn't sad.

relaxing before class one day.

my date. she keeps me warm.

everyone was doing it. so i did too.

looks nothing like me.. but whatever.

i want that hair.

picture heavyyyyy

holy crap! i've been busy.

finals, two christmas parties, kid was almost hospitalized, etc... i guess pictures will explain better.

for tradition's sake, laila and i lost our minds while studying for our 

programming final and did this silly photo shoot. (lexi joined us!)

yep.. this happened (a lot). 2nd quarter in the bag!

so after finishing up my last final, i came home in the middle of the night to a kid 

with lungs not moving air well. . 

so, the doctor it was. it took 2 one hour treatments to allow us to leave the doctor. 

she even said had i not been used to this, she would have hospitalized him. 

that night, he really wanted to do something christmas related. 

however, being outside wasn't an option. christmas lights drive-thru 

at chik fila did the trick.

this cutie was given to a sweet family with two young girls.

he's so adorable.

ah! i've lost quite a few pounds! success!

i took this at a retail complex. this was after the sandy hook shooting.

tragic.

i ate two chocolates and both had the same thing inside.

hmmmmm...

we had a mom and luke day date.

i was so nice and long overdue.

i always forget how hilarious he is.

oh, and we christmas-ified the house.

a little car nap in the parking lot of the school before panel.

laila, lauren, and i at our secret santa christmas party.

laila's awesome present to me!!!

ugly christmas sweater party at fado! great times.

i want this. bad.

my sleeping friends in atlanta.

merry christmas!

im sick. boooo.